Swim without knowing how to swim

The artwork "Surrender" that is lost somewhere..:(


It is like swimming without being able to swim. I have no choice. Surrender has not arrived and the only artwork in the correct format is the one that I am painting now. I had and still have high fever and I don't had strength and courage to drive to Skövde to search a frame in the right size. . It's cost to much to let some professional frame an artwork and I can't afford it.

Mixed media is my ego. I mastered it, I can create whatever I want with mixed media. Quickly, I can capture a voice, convert it into an image. But to paint a clean artwork is something else. I never studied the secret of how to paint,, so I learn while I am painting. Well, it's was so I learned mixed media too. I learned how to illustrate because of my own mistakes in the visual world. But it was when I mastered it that I started to show my illustrations.

But now is different.

I shall exhibit with a painting instead of an mixed media illustration. This is the third complete clean painting I actually done during all my life and with this one I shall exhibit. Oh God. It's like I shall swim without knowing how to swim.
Now I shall go back to bed, take care of the fever and see if I finish with the artwork so I can send it tomorrow.

What a way to learn how to paint......