I wish that I was an artwork

A tulip from my garden, I miss the spring, I miss my flowers.


I do not feel well, the fever comes and goes and don't want to leaves me alone. I feel so dizzy, as if life has flowed out of me, figuratively and literally.
How shall I manage to break a vicious circle?

I lay these two days and to pass the time, I drew / painted.
I'm thinking if I should send a painted artwork for the exhibition in USA, but the question is if I dare. There are such great artists who exhibit there, and to exhibit with the media that I don't mastered well maybe is a bit foolish.
I need an agent that give med advices.

I'll see how I do. The illustration which I participated into the project 1001001, may be eligible to participate in Chicago. I have to see how it looks like. I was told that the shipment to Germany crushed a glazed frame. Why am I not surprised? I felt that it was not right to framed with glass. . When will I learn to listen to me and rely on it too .... phase also.

I answered the mail and hope Germany return the artwork so I can fix it as needed, repair the frame and polish it up.

Well I got a mail from the owner of the gallery in Denmark that my painted work arrived without problem. Thank's God for that. I wish that I was an artwork and I wish that I was the one that was traveling around the world. Yes, I do wish that I was an artwork .... I really hate my "locked life" in this little world I live in, a life where I don't have any future. Oh right now I wish that I was able to fly over the hills to the world where I belongs.....but best to give the doctor a call to see what's wrong with me.
I am frustrated today.